This Might Be How It Felt? 2022, 30x50”, cyanotype prints, twine, painter’s tape on inkjet photo prints.

This Might Be How it Felt is an alternative process mixed media photo collage. The process of the work involved the discovery of found photographs, followed by their destruction in forms of cutting, tearing, burning, and etching into in order to create something new. Once destroyed, the negatives were reconstructed with tape, thread, and a sewing needle. The destruction and reconstruction process followed into the making of the print as black and white inkjet prints of collaged negatives were cut up, sewn, and taped back together, with a final imprint of cyanotype exposures. 

The work explores the process of revisiting suburban childhood and the uncertainty of piecing it together in all of its joy, pain, and the in between. Memories clouded by a coalition of trauma and the naivety of youth surface to find themselves as a half-truth-half-dream of what was. The rememberer morphs reality, constructing something new in the valiant process of revisiting. It may not be entirely trustworthy, but nonetheless it was how they felt.